Sunday March 29, 2015
I loathe Sundays. The day of rest is a day of thinking about resting. Sunday is like being slowly buried alive. Just as my face is being covered, Monday comes along, and you're dealing with the thought of once again, facing another Sunday. To this very day, I'm still confused if Sunday is the first day of the week, or the last. The vagueness of it, drives me insane. I can never understand the mania about Sundays. All I know is that by chance if I feel restless, it seems to be always on a Sunday. Fucking Sunday.
The other thing that bothers me is that I travel throughout Los Angeles on the bus, and the bus schedules on Sundays are slow or non-existent. Many times I find myself in a part of town, and not being able to get out of that area, due to the limited bus services on Sunday. Once on the bus, no problem, but waiting for a bus that may or may not show up, is torture. Also, there are few shade trees on streets or especially at a bus stop. Direct sunlight which causes skin cancer is also part of the equation of life on a Sunday.
Sunday is also the one day of the week, where I think about the other six days of that week. For me, it's the period at the end of the sentence. Rarely does the week work out OK for me. So my depression kicks in on a Sunday, realizing that I was pretty much of a failure throughout that week. When the thick Sunday paper hits my door every Sunday morning, the depression is so thick, I feel like I can't swallow. The paper rarely has news of that day, but mostly looking back on the week - which is like looking at my weekly journal, which is mostly blank. Which to be honest is a perfect self-portrait.
I've read that German and Swedish researchers have determined that Sunday is the most depressing day of the week for a lot of people. It was suggested on one website to write a letter to yourself on a Sunday night, and the second part of the letter, imagine yourself doing something exciting. Moronic advice which even makes me more depressed.
"The Sunday Night Blues" is the terminology for those who can't face the rest of the week, and realize that Sunday is just a reminder of things to come. Which is partly true for me, but what I loathe the most about that specific day is that it's set up as a day of relaxation or meditative thoughts. Those who control the calendar also control the world. I'm even upset that there is a 24-hour day. The restriction of days, months and even years I find to be restrictive and totally depressing with respect to the creative spirit. If I was free of Sundays, I feel I could take each day as it is, and not what I imagined it would be.
I can't imagine anything worse than the Sunday Brunch. The combination of breakfast and lunch. More likely an excuse for those who can't get up early for breakfast, which leads to a sense of guilt of missing that meal and having lunch instead. A world that is not causal made up this late morning/early afternoon meal - and it is usually a social outing, where one has to deal with the like-minded crowd. It's a disgusting practice. British author Guy Beringer coined the phrase "brunch" in an article printed in "Hunter's Weekly" in 1895. Brunch was proposed by him as a stance against the meal after one goes to church. It should be lighter in mood. Beringer's theory is that the brunch will "put you in a good temper, it makes you satisfied with yourself and your fellow beings, it sweeps away the worries and cobwebs of the week." For me, it is totally the opposite. I can't stand eating with a group of people who honor the work week by having a meal together on a Sunday.
Also the Sunday brunch was a good excuse for those who are burned-out, due to their work week, to start drinking alcohol in the late morning. Bloody Marys, Bellinis and Mimosas are the popular drinks tied to the image of Brunch on a Sunday. In the United States, brunch became part of the social life in the 1930s. The hotel restaurant also jumped in because a lot of restaurants were closed on Sunday - so there was a service that needed to be offered. Traditionally it is agreed upon that brunch takes place between 11:00 AM and 3:00 PM. Oddly enough, this is the time-frame where I do most of my writing.
For years, I have refused to have "brunch" due that it cuts into my private time with pen and paper. The fact that most have to have a social life while working, and then on the weekend they are expected to once again, have a "social life" is a life of misery. One needs not only to eliminate the 'brunch' but also the concept of a day of imprisonment - known as Sunday.